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Friday, January 30, 2015

23 + a Slight Change of Course

Dark Chocolate Raspberry Birthday Cake
Dark Chocolate Raspberry Birthday Cake

22 is easy. It has its own Taylor Swift song; it's a time when pretty much everyone I know is in college and still figuring out their lives. At 22 you're still exploring and partying.

23 is a totally different business. I know there are lots of 23 year olds still at college, but I was never going to be one of them. For me, 23 is mid-twenties. At 23 I should have a career and a plan and a space of my own, and I have none of those things. I have student loans and a job in retail.

I realized all of this as I got out of the shower a month ago, and it was the worst I had felt in a long time. I had so many regrets -- why didn't I accept that job? Why did I spend four months in a catatonic sabbatical from life? Geneva from a few years ago would be mortified to learn where she was headed.

But I'm 23 now, and it isn't as bad as I expected. I rang in my personal new year with red wine, the best chocolate cake, and Downton Abbey, and although I don't quite feel comfortable with the idea of being 23, I'm sure I will by the time I turn 24. It's less about numbers than circumstances, and those change constantly.

Speaking of which, in the spirit of the new year, I plan to branch out a little bit with this space. I feel as if my writing muscles have atrophied, and as much as I love clothes, food, and travel, there are many more aspects of my life I never touch on. I'm looking forward to sharing my views on some new topics over the next several months, and we will see where that goes!

A very happy birthday to us all!

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