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Monday, May 5, 2014

Uncertain

My unmade bed in black and white

Since it's a Monday, and no one likes those anyway, I figured it's probably a good time to admit that I've been depressed, anxious, and terrified about my future for months now.

Finishing college is really difficult. In the sense of being academically, tough, of course, but that isn't a concern of mine anymore. I'd have to really bomb my remaining finals not to graduate in two weeks, and I don't see that happening. I mean more in the sense of transition. Due to the amount of debt I put myself in to achieve this degree, I now face the reality of moving back in with my parents rather than broadening my horizons elsewhere. This has been my plan for years, but it still stings, especially when I consider how many of my high school friends went to school near our hometown and now live elsewhere in pursuit of careers. Michigan is one of the worst places in the country to be a young graduate.

It isn't as if there aren't bright spots. I'm getting my bachelor's degree from an amazing school, and that's something to be proud of. In the next month or so, I will be celebrating not just my own graduation, but my boyfriend's as well. I will visit family, visit new cities, and enjoy my last few gasps of college life. After that, though, it's one big question mark, and that's a terrifying thought.

I wanted to write this because it's good to have it off my chest, but also because I know I'm not the only student who feels this way. Solidarity, friends. We'll be okay.

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